woah, now this sounds reasonable.
I'm happy for you people that this conversation emerged, thank you!

Anyway I'm in the middle of my finals at sociology and I'll do another semester here just to be able to stay out from home (getting a job is serriously impossible nowdays ) and I'll possibly start this at next september....
until that I arranging myself some post-highschool "levelup" exams that are kind of requirement to enter a school..... in math and chemistry.
so I figured getting really well prepard for those should do the trick... like aiming for a collage level "A" on that is an ultimate overkill there lol and I'm kinda used to that treatment...
so.... maybe this year I'll overcome this age long fear of mine.... I was pretty bad with math and therefor all science in highschool just because of this... but I always were sad because it, 'cause I really liked the subjects and all but though I'd be never able to get a career because of this..... and now it seems like a reasonable and achiveable thing and this is serriously awesome!
I just need... a lot..... reinforcement.