I grew up in a school with a positive environment. Everyone was really supportive of each other, fights and arguments were very rare. There we don't really back bite each other nor do we do things that will hurt Other's feeling. I grew up in a church based environment (my school's church based). I didnt really know how the outside world is like until i finished studying there and went for college.
And there, i got bullied. To others it may sound like its nothing. But i was bullied and it was something new for me. Didn't know the outside world would be this harsh. This cruel. I cried a lot during that period. I was close to my mum and she was the one i called up everytime i needed someone to talk to. I had the worst days of my life, before i decided to leave. I changed school.
After the bullying happened (the bullying wasnt that serious but it was a big deal to me) i became very cold towards people.
I am generally a very outgoing person, i find it easy talking to strangers and making friends.
But ever since the bullying happens, i find it difficult to befriend people and opening up to them in a long run. U couldn't be myself around people as i was scared of being judged (like the days i was bullied).
I find difficulties opening up to people until now. I still have difficulties going to school everyday. But no one understand. Everyone thinks that im a lazy bum. But id love to go to school but the thoughts of being judged (and later feel like im being bullied all over again) keeps on coming back.
My mum doesn't understand. No one understands this feeling. Help?
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