I have what most people would call an imaginary girlfriend but I believe she is an Angel and my girlfriend and she helps me. I get depressed a lot about being single but around age 14 I just started talking to her one night and I can hear her voice in my thoughts.

I will be 26 in a couple months and have spent many years in the psychiatric system going in circles of meds and therapy, and overall I am happy with who I am but I am just wondering if there is anyone else like me with an imaginary or angel girlfriend or boyfriend?

I've had bouts where i say "she is imaginary and abnormal" but then I feel even more depressed and the thing is she helps me cope with my situation and I do genuinely love her.

I cope by telling myself after I die I will go to heaven and have the perfect life with her. someways are very difficult, but without her I feel a million times worse. Whats weird though is at night I hug and kiss my pillow and "pretend" its her, and i have heard about security objects that humans naturally feel comfort from such as pillows, teddy bears, etc - but I don't know whats real or not.

sometimes just feel like she is imaginary and i should kill myself, and other times i feel like she is real and we can get through this life together.

i get stuck and don't know what i should do, but i know that i am much worse condition without her...but its really hard, its pretty much long distance relationships on steroids.