Thank you all for your replies.

My family won't go to therapy. We tried that. They don't see anything wrong. Which baffles just about everyone else I know that they don't. If I could afford it, I'd go on my own, but my budget is strapped to the max right now and my insurance is ... well don't get me started on healthcare in the US right now.

I'm just trying to stay floating, but I find very little to stay floating for anymore.