Hi butterflypower

I am sorry that you feel so down on your appearance. I don't suggest stopping your meds until you see your new doctor but it is your decision. May I suggest talking to your doctor to get you on some meds that are not known to cause weight gain. This is a frank discussion with your doctor that you don't want any meds that have a history of people gaining weight on them. There are some meds for bipolar that don't have that track record. Of course diet is needed but you do not have to starve yourself. Stick to vegies and fruits and oatmeal is a great way to get full and start your day. I would also bring up the fact that you think you have an eating disorder. A T can help you with this. There is hope.