Seeking Peace, yea I guess. Reason my gyno said sex therapist is because she wants me to practice (not trying to get personal) inserting objects in me so I can be used to it. She didn't say anything about a therapist specializing in trauma. Like I said, do I wanna be in therapy x amount of years paying for their bills or vacations? No. My ex-therapist has background in trauma didn't see much of it. I am needing to talk and do work on my own to get to a place of comfort, being comfortable and safe with my own body, then i can enjoy sex! Anyway, I have the info of what abuse is but I need help in getting past it so it can stop controlling me and also things that I was told about sex is hindering me too.

When i saw my last therapist, I didn't get the chance to interview it was like see what she can do or not type of thing since my insurance is through the State. My gyno said a sex therapist would be able to delve into my issues much deeper and she said they could also give me a vaginal dialator to use. Now, if I saw a therapist who does specializes in sexual abuse, the mental part, they wouldn't be able to give me those dialators.

For me, i don't wanna go through that boring how does that make you feel and what could you have done differently - that does nothing for me. I am just interviewing the sex therapists see where they come from on their approach and one lady I liked but she teaches human sexuality as mine is sexual abuse that she couldn't do with me. A therapist who does the mental part will be covered by my State insurance. With the state, you don't have many options to interview they just pick someone for you and you gotta find out yourself.

I let bad experiences get to me. I am not the type to let things go, that's been the hardest part for me still working on it. Right now, i am looking at other places like a support group and this one I found is a therapy support group which has a cost! Does that make sense? The cost with one is 40-50 bucks....

My ex-therapist used how does that make you feel blah blah so did a college counselor I had a few years ago did the same thing. I am not sure if a 12 week support group will work or extensive therapy will do it. If I didn't have such a stuck mindset, I would be able to solve my own problems instead of bugging people to help me solve them.