I agree with what Kali is saying to you. If your mental health is preventing or making it very difficult to work, that's what Disability is for, folks like us. Lots of people have that misconception that it is for lazy people who for folks that don't want to work. It is for folks who cant work, and it sounds like you have issues with that. Its not your fault..

Make sure your PDoc understands all your issues and apply if you cant work. I wish you the best.