I don't know much about meds, other than the ones I take and why. I hope the full dose helps and that you will stay in touch with your prescribing doctor to be monitored.

One of your expressions about how you think that you *should* be feeling a certain way because you are anhedonic and not others exactly captures what I was trying to say without saying it as concisely as you did. We start to use the definition to define who we are and *should* be. I think the definition is helpful if it helps one to understand what the path to recovery might be.

I have been reading about depression, and how the way out is a kind of jagged upward line, with periods of feeling "better" and period of falling back. This helps me to have faith that I am going to come out of this thing during the painful fallback periods. I hope that learning to understand what anhedonia is and how to cope with it will help you.