My depression has spiked a bit today, not sure why. I'm still on only 25 mg lamictal for my bipolar, which is pretty far from target dose I think, so maybe that's why. You have to ramp up slowly apparently. I go up to 50 mg on Thursday.

I had to really force myself to exercise this morning. Will probably just hang on the internet until the playoff game at 12:30 - - Go Pack!

Other than that, dreading ECT tomorrow but too scared to stop at this point. That severe depression I had was just too terrible.

Editing this to say I guess I won't be having ECT after all. I forgot that I was not supposed to take my lamictal today or yesterday (to make sure I have a seizure), so I'll have to call and cancel. I'm sure I'll be all right (I hope at least) since I had to cancel once before and made it through ok.