Hi Homeria, thanks so much for sharing that with us. And however much you've managed to write that has to have been a really big step for you so real kudos to you!!!
And of course it's going to be scary, abuse is scary and a whole lot of other things, you know that so clearly yourself right? But now, you're not alone
And you are going to find so many understanding, so many supportive, so many inspirational people on here, people who are trying to "make it" just like you, people who are "making it", people who have "made it".............so wherever you're at you're not going to be on your own, we can be here for you.
And you know, read or talk about as much as might help you...........sometimes things might be too triggering and you might need to "step away" from those things, and that's OK whatever might help you.
And when you start talking about or working through more things, they might get a lot harder, but that can gradually be OK too if you're on the road to "healing". Just in your own time, hey??
So lean on us, get support from us as much as you need to, but remember you've shown you're incredibly strong in "just" writing as much as you have!!!

Alison