I'm single, and sometimes it's ok, but mostly it's very lonely. I had a 14 year relationship and marriage which ended 4 years ago, pretty much due to both our mental illness. I have dated since then, but nothing serious. I feel like i can't really connect to anyone. I just turned 38, and i feel like i will always be alone. I don't understand, because i really try to be a good person and treat people well, so i don't know why i can't form a relationship.