We had a very serious conversation that we both want to get married one day and we wouldn't be wasting time on each other if we didn't think it was a possibility with us. He just always holds back because his job takes him away a lot, and his previous relationship he said was like a divorce for the family when it ended and now he's not wanting to bring anyone home until he is SURE he will marry them. And he is not wanting to waste time on someone he knows he won't marry. But it's just that he's not 100% sure I'm the one. He hopes I am, and I hope I am, but marriage is a big thing, and who knows, maybe in another year we will be sick of eachother (I highly doubt it because we were good friends before we started dating), but I myself can't say I am 100%. But I think differently. I am willing to take the risks of getting hurt because I love him so much. He loves me, but doesn't want to move things too fast because he doesn't want to hurt me, himself, or his family if things didn't end up working out. If you ask me he is thinking way too much about it, but he made himself a promise to only bring one more girl home and he just wants it to be right. So I am being patient because everything we've gone through so far has pointed to us being together, he just needs that time. He gets so anxious thinking about what would happen if things didn't work out. Always looking at the negative. It's somewhat hard to explain, because it's not that we aren't close, we are very close. He just has a lot of fears.
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