Hi all,

Not been posting as much as I used to. I do my thing as per the role but expression of my feelings has diminished somewhat which I partially see as a good thing - that I've stabled out a bit with the meds and that things are not as chaotic as they were leading up to/during/after my hospital admission.

But, as per the title... I am still getting very very tired and it's a struggle to keep motivation and alertness up for more than a few hours before desperately wanting to sleep.

Self harming is still an issue... a small one and the spaces in between are much longer than they were.

Will be tackling trauma work with my T in the next few weeks... and a little nervous but I think I'm in a better place and she's been prepping me for it in baby steps this time (was not the only factor... but the week before my admission we did a big session and in retrospect she has admitted that she miscalculated my stability for it... not her fault... I guess as a defence mechanism I do try to show others that I'm calm and strong )

So yeah... that's where I'm at right now... thought I'd check in and say hi