Everyone is out of control, well not everyone, it is mostly Ella and now Lauren. Lauren just wants this all to stop and be over with so I am trying so hard to make sure she is not out and I stay in control. Lizzie was so scared yesterday, the poor sweetheart. She could not find her rabbit mimzy anywhere and she kept txting our T. She was so frightened and afraid without mimzy. T was a bit confused I think, Lizzie kept asking her to just come over and help her look but of course she was not able to do this. We found mimzy in the end, she was hiding under several soft blankets, Lizzie must have left her there in a panic after the yelling and fighting began and forgotten where she was. Lauren wants to kill us all, so much has been happening and the cut from 12 days ago is not healing at all - the stitches were meant to be taken out today but of course that cannot happen now. We have an appointment with our GP soon but she won't be able to help much and then tomorrow we must drive to see the psychiatrist and our T and then on Wednesday an appointment with the local psych team. Lauren will be devastated if they do not help her, she will feel like she is not worthy or deserving of help and this will make things much much worse.

Elisa