Hello Gabby. I am sorry you are struggling to make this decision. I hope that you decide to go to the dinner since obviously you deserve to go through your voluntary efforts. If you go to the dinner just sit elsewhere other than the table with your friend, if it makes you uncomfortable. I hope everything goes well for you at the dinner, I would hate to see you having regrets in not going to the dinner that you deserve to attend. Take care of yourself (((GABBY))). Soidhonia