So I've very briefly talked to my friend about the situation, or more exactly he made me talk about it. It was almost 9PM and I was still sitting on their couch knowing I had to leave but not wanting to, when he said: You don't want to go home, do you? You can stay here if you want, and go to my GP tomorrow so you get a doctor's note for work.

I was a bit taken aback, and told him that I saw T on Friday and she actually gave me the option not to go to work this week but I declined as I didn't wannt to stay at home. So my friend has offered me to stay with them for a few days if I want, and told that they have nothing special planned this week, so I can show up at their door at anytime.

We briefly discussed going inpatient as he has BPD too and has done it in the past. He asked to think long and hard about it as it's not all positive. But I know T is not fond of in-patient programms and if she ever recommends it for me, she will have very good reasons for doing so and will find me the best care available.

As for today, well I'm ok for now, getting ready for work. But I'm a bit worried as I can still feel last night's meds effect and I worry about my ability to drive. Driving to work should be ok, it's relatively short, but I was supposed to drive for work today and I may have to tell them I can't. I will see how the drive to work goes and decide after that.