I feel this way with my anger right now. I really just wish to go yell or get things out with my T.... do not even know what about.. but he is gone this week. Maybe I am angry with him being gone but I think that in general we have started a new phase where I can express my anger or really have serious intense discussions and I am up for one....big time. (Often I feel powerless over my anger though I try to harness it... I look foward to reshape it.. T tells me I need to make friends with it and learn to use it to my advantage as long as I have it.)

I am just standing here waiting to have one.... I have my angry parts..I know.... but now it is time to bring it to T and work it through..I hope....

I have sadness too... but that is familiar and I am sick of it. I am all too familiar with that part.