So I'm a red head. We have a long standing reputation as people who have short tempers and anger. I have never considered myself an angry person. I have alwasy worked really really hard to never be angry, or to never show it. When I get angry I internalize, and take it out on myself. I stew about things, ruminate and then feel angry at the sub sequential thoughts. But have only ever acted physically a couple of times in my life. But I digress.

For months I have been telling my Psych team that I am cycling. That something else is going on that I am having real trouble controlling. That in between the massive depressive cycles are smaller cycles where I am silly happy though not manic, then within days super angry to the point of not caring if I die or not and actually wishing it would happen. When I last saw my team I told them I was concerned about going too high. Today I was as angry as I have ever been and yet can only think of one thing that was to blame, and it was something that I should have been able to dismiss quickly. I don't see my team for another three weeks.

My Question. How Do I get my Psych Team to take me seriously? Is this all in my head? And is my anger me or part of my Bipolar? Cause as I tried to explain to my wife, either it is part of my Bipolar or I have anger management issues and am the angry person everyone associates with redheads. I am hoping its Bipolar, cause the last thing I want to have to deal with is having another personality flaw thrown in my face,I think having Bipolar is enough of a curse.