Thanks. I agree moving past trauma and saying I am safe but I am not safe. Even my social worker agreed how this is very difficult for me which I tried to explain to people for a long *** time! My ex-therapist's background is in abuse and trauma the only good point she made (that shocked me) is she agreed how the abuse was traumatic for me growing up yet I have wonderful parents lol in the same breath!

My ex-therapist is a complete idiot saying at least you got a roof over your head, sorry, I never felt safe period! She never knew about me being touched by a stranger at 13, who knew what ignorant comment would come out of her mouth. Even if I did tell her, I certainly didn't want her to help me with it. She wanted me to do things to "please the abusers" just to keep the peace, oh god, been doing that for years and when is it gonna stop?!