You seem to be going through a lot. I used to give myself a big hug and tell everyone that we will be alright and that we are safe now. I would just sit there with my arms wrapped around our body and say that to everyone over and over. It helped us feel warm. You and your system is working very hard I can tell. I think all of you are doing a good job. It takes time to come to agreements with everyone. We set rules that no one could hurt the body because the body had been hurt enough. It took a while but now everyone agrees that the body has always helped us and has protected us and we should not harm the body. He is one of us. We have all been assaulted and abused, we all share that horrific truth. I think we all seem to realize that we are a team, we are one in our effort to survive. We did it when we were very little we can do it now in the present. We don't all agree but we are willing to hear what each other thinks. Stay strong I think you will all start feeling once you start working with your therapist.