thanks, he's better now no heavy breathing lately so I'm more calm about him

here therapy by phone doesn't exist :c I found only place where it's possible to call in emergency, but not as every week therapy.. when I asked pdoc about agoraphobia and how I'm supposed to go to therapy so far away or go to job (he wrote me a note for employment office that I can work.. I have no idea how in this state) so he only said 'take meds'.. but any meds didn't work for me so far, and I'm freaking scared of meds (probably thanks to my father and side effects), I struggle even with taking iron for anemia..
btw I wonder, if emotional abuse can lead to feeling like psycho?