To the OP....recently had something happen in Therapy and meditation....I have what I will call a guardian angel with me....sometimes she's only there in meditation, sometimes she'll talk to me other times, sometimes it's just a feeling of intense serenity and joy. Ultimately, it does not matter what she is, because everything she's told me is positive and in my best interest.

Finally told T about it and he was really excited about this, because I now have a voice of grace in my chorus of inner critics that calls me on some of my bad thoughts. He made the comment that regardless of what this was, that she was helping to identify negative thoughts and that I hafd probably let go of ego, which gave her the opening.

Giving up could be that letting go of ego, and handing things over to something larger than ourselves.