yes. I actually almost blew it last night bigtime. I'm currently hypomanic and flew into a crazy minirage last night. Started a huge fight with my fiance for no reason bc I had been experiencing obsessive jealous thoughts over his past for the last several days. Poor guy had done nothing. I was dropping F bombs all over the place. Told him I was moving back across country, the engagement was off etc etc. He in turn said fine, he was done living with all this BS, couldn't take it anymore and so on.
So this morning I had to suck it up and apologize, started crying, tried explaining for the umpteenth time what it feels like to have bipolar . . .
Luckily he forgave me, but there is a tension in the air.
He told me that I sabotage all that is good in my life for no reason. That I "Destroy everything good in your life with selfish acts and careless priority"
hmmm. sound familiar?