It all sounds very familiar. I've lost jobs from trying to work manic. I scared one of my friends that I was staying with that she moved all sharp objects (including butter knives) into her room so I couldn't get to them. My aunt refused to talk to me for over a year at one point because I kept "lying" to her about how I felt. Another friend told me I was making bad decisions and she wouldn't stay around to see what happened. This last weekend I let loose on someone I know and ended up curled in a dark place crying for hours. There seems to be no end to the harm I can inflict on those around me.