Thanks! For sure my kids definitely come first! I don't bring anyone around my kids that I don't see it seriously going somewhere with. Not only that, and not to sound arrogant, but I deserve better than some guy coming over to my house to watch movies while my kids are sleeping! I want an actual date, not just a hangout buddy. It just gives off the wrong impression. And unless he is the type of man I would want my daughter to date or the kind of man I'd want my son to be, he doesn't meet them.

I have considered that, but with my ex's schedule I can't commit to any activities or clubs because I never know when he'll have the kids. He's a train conductor so his schedule is all over the place. And the things I enjoy doing are things where there are females! hehe I've tried going to a fitness or dance class, but it's all women. I went to the pub by myself last night just because I wanted to watch the hockey game to try and get out of my comfort zone. And I totally get about not rushing it. I have that conversation/pep talk with myself all the time. But when the chance comes, I totally blow it without even realizing it! One guy I was seeing was texting and calling me non-stop, making next date plans before a date even ended, was talking about how he was crazy about me and couldn't stop thinking about me... at first it kind of scared me off but then I thought what I usually do hasn't worked in the past so I'd try and match him... and then he said I was coming on too strong! Like wtf?! It's so confusing! I find that I'm anxious at first and overthink things, and then once things start to go well I distance myself and find things that I don't like about the guy.