Im really sorry you're going through such a tough time. All of you are being very brave. Is there a way to put the self that wants to kill everyone in lockdown? I had to do that and sometimes still do. It's a place inside I can put her. I also have some safe places the kids can play. I hope this helps. I'm sorry your GP walked out while one of you was talking that's super disrespectful and awful.
May angels surround you.