When I went to get a psych evaluation done (for depressive symptoms), the doctor didn't tell me anything or make any diagnosis. I saw on his report that he had written 3 or 4 possibilities. One of them was cyclothimic disorder (a mild form of bipolar). I know I don't have it because like bipolar, the depression and mania comes in cycles of days or usually weeks at a time. My mood does not follow a cycle pattern.
I told my sister about it and she was like ''that's not even a real thing. If so everyone has it. Everyone has mood swings...that's dumb.''

Am I normal? Is it just regular common mood swings? I mean, I don't fit in any disorder. So I guess maybe this is normal after all.

I have what I call on/off depression since I was about 10 (was bullied at the time, and the feelings never went away). I have times when I get really depressed (feel hopeless, general anxiety feeling, hate myself, self-harm, serious suicidal thoughts, crying for no reason...). And I have times when I feel great (which kind of eliminates Major Depressive disorder as a possiblity). In those times I feel super confident, happy, like I'm on top of the world, all my bad thoughts and worries go away, act without thinking).

I know it's not bipolar because as I have said, it does not come in cycle. I will usually feel like this only for a day or two I think and then I go back to depression mode. And then a couple days later I feel great. It's one of the reason it took a long time for me to try to get help. I would feel so ****** and suicidal and decide ''okay, tommorow I'm going to see a doctor, I'm done!'' and then the next day I feel great so no need to get help.

I am a 20 year old girl. Is this just typical ''hormone'' mood swing? The thing that make me doubt it sometimes is the fact that I do get very suicidal at times.

I have been seeing a doctor and I saw a few nurses and social workers. Nobody sees anything wrong with me (I don't tend to talk a lot during our meetings though and I suck at expressing my feelings). They are positive I don't have depression. They say I just have ''depression symptoms''. The doctor did presribe antidepressents to me (back in september) and I recently got presribed a different one. So far it's not doing much.