Hello, Macy666.
Basic question/distinction:
Do you want to die,
OR
do you want the pain to stop?
If your goal is to stop the pain, you probably need to get substantive help - being depressed and a minor both limit what you can do yourself. Based on what you've written, your mother cannot serve as your ally in getting the pain to stop.
Do you have access to a doctor?
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.