A bit of advice: Don't do what I do (nothing) and get some help. There is something wrong with you and it is called mental illness. Many of the people on this site suffer from it.

The issue comes from hopelessly outdated mindsets. If you had a broken leg no one would say "just get up and run around, it'll go away" or "you cannot have a broken leg, you are so young"

A great number of people still see mental illness as a sign of personal weakness. They will heap derision of someone and say they are a wuss or a crybaby or just express maudlin sympathy, thinking that maybe all you need is a kind word or a hug. These same people will often cheer on someone who suffers from a more physical ailment, citing their courage. Even many with mental illness regard it as a personal failing and either suffer in silence or drown their pain in substance abuse.

What happens when the thing that betrays you is the thing that is most of what we call you, your mind? When I am at my worst I suffer from delusions and paranoia and, when I come out, the thoughts I had seem so stupid. But, in the depths with the dogs your sense of what is, and is not, real is skewed

Let me put it to you this way: Just because you know there are strings, it doesn't make you any less of a puppet. You need to get treatment, cut the strings that make you dance a dirge waltz against your will and live a long, happy, healthy life.

In other words, as I said earlier, don't be a fool like me