(((Wendy))); thanks dear. You are right; it does take ahold. It does tell me that I am no good. And I do feel that way. It is a destructive illness and I am letting it happen. But do I not cause this pain myself? I am going back to bed now; not getting up until I have to get the kids. Just want to hide. I will take a sleeping pill if I have to; just dont want to think. And yes, it is very similar to SI-very.

Thanks Rapunzel, I love to hear from u.

justy