There's a spelling bee at my school and I'm nominated every year because I'm a natural good speller. Last year when tryouts were held I felt obligated to try out because of my parents. As soon as it was my turn I got very nervous and told the lady I didn't want to do this anymore. When I told my parents they were so upset and told me it was ridiculous that I was scared of something so petty.
This year I tried out and made it in successfully(my teacher forced me to even when I told her i didn't want to). Now every time I hear or see 'spell' I freak out. Two years ago when I did this I was shaking, had a very bad tummy ache, felt light headed, was sweating like a pig, and had a lisp( which rarely happens) so they asked me to repeat myself often. I don't want to feel this anymore it's overwhelming. I have exams this week also so i have enough on my plate. Any tips for calming myself down.