i am with them .....weed for u is a bad thing u look at it as a escape not a med u would end up abusing it again .......and the fact that it makes u think u are going to raise the anti christ pretty clear sign saying it does not work well for u (war of heaven and hell we are just pawns in the game .....as can do is win the battles u can make a person smile .....give a kid a toy ....randomly pay for the food for the person behide u even tho u do not know them )

take the meds the doctor gives u ........if u want the medical stuff from weed to smoke in epen it called CBD oil no buzz or high effect just that calming effect

as for what to do i pick a new skill and learn it ......my skills are set for me so i am not going to list because i do not want to get band so some general ones always good
1 cooking skills learn to make several dishes u like your own touch to give it a twist
2 fixing stuff break something take it apart and fix it if u can start small fix what is broken now
3 make stuff this can be anything from painting to woodworking to jams/jelly/pickles to growing peppers if u like spice to brewing own beer to carvings
4 learn something ......do not understand chaos theory or m theory/string learn it ........fun one is if u look at all religions they are basically same god all paths lead home kind of thing