I have been depressed for a long time now and I've tried a bunch of things to help but I really am not making any progress because I hate myself and I feel like I don't deserve good things. Also, in the back of my mind, I just know that nothing matters and that makes me want to die. I know I can't know that nothing matters but I just can't be convinced otherwise. I really wish I could think things mattered but I haven't thought like that in so long. Now it's just a core belief of mine and I wish it weren't. I also really think I am a bad/stupid/ugly/incompetent person and I always criticize myself. I can logically understand that I don't deserve to be miserable but I'm just really stubborn about hating myself. Does anyone have any suggestions for trying to change these strong beliefs I have?