Well. Does the medication help you? I would seriously ask your team to reevaluate your meds as they may not be working or working as well as they should. I think there are good police and bad police just like any group of people. I don't blame you for not wanting to be locked up. I don't think that's anyone's goal and that shouldn't be your treatment team's goal either. I'm listening. I think your own spirit and soul is ultimately stronger than anyone else trying to control you. May angels surround you.