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Originally Posted by czarina1984
It all sounds very familiar. I've lost jobs from trying to work manic. I scared one of my friends that I was staying with that she moved all sharp objects (including butter knives) into her room so I couldn't get to them. My aunt refused to talk to me for over a year at one point because I kept "lying" to her about how I felt. Another friend told me I was making bad decisions and she wouldn't stay around to see what happened. This last weekend I let loose on someone I know and ended up curled in a dark place crying for hours. There seems to be no end to the harm I can inflict on those around me.
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Have you considered getting a 2nd opinion on your dx's? from what you are saying this anger and rapid acceleration into same might be switching to another personality..."i know when i'm on one side or the other"...from experience, we can be aware when we are not driving, just a passenger. Its is truely scary that you know you might hurt someone. You are on a plethera of meds and seeing some type of medical professional and the core issue is costing you jobs. and relationships. Something else to consider is that aggressiveness can be a side effect for some medications, more so when the medications may be interacting with each other. Just something to consider. Good luck and be well, peace.