I don't even know why I am writing. It is all over the same thing happening again. Early evening until falling asleep is always my super worst phase. I can't stop crying until I manage to fall sleep, then I wake up and the sky is just a bit brighter but still not bright enough. It's a vicious circle. My heart is aching, I mean literally. I cannot even breath properly, I walk around the house like the zombies of walking dead. There is no meaning in anything. Does anybody else in depression has the feeling that people hate you? That they don't even wanna send you any messages anymore? Like you don't exist? Is it just me who feels so lonely? I want this to stop and I cannot, still cannot, believe that it will never cease to exist until I die. And I have no idea anymore if this is a life worth living.