Thank you all for replying. I'm very sorry, I wasn't in my right mind when I posted this. It's just that I can't sleep anymore. Nighttime is the worst for me because I can feel things coming for me. I know they are. I don't know exactly what they are, but I see the shadows that move. I understand that there are people who are willing to help me, but I'm afraid telling someone the thoughts I think will scare them because I know they scare me. I read a quote once, and at the moment it feels very much like my life:
"Monsters are real and ghosts are real, too. They live inside us and sometimes, they win."
~Stephen King