I understand you, GreenMoss.
The thing is that my father wasn't affectionable. He was distant but at the same time, he was overprotective, mainly with the females. Of course, I took the worst bc I'm the oldest female in my family.
He only see dangers and negativiness.

In my first adolescence, I felt like a bird that cannot fly bc its wings were cut.
But, again, it's better to have a father than not to have him.