Alison, once again, thank you SO much!!!

The weird thing about my getting so stressed out and worried about this is that I would NEVER treat anyone else who was ill in a way I fear I'll be treated.. No, I'd be sympathetic and sorry for them for having to go through all that, and would do my best to help them get through it.. How come I can't extend the same kind of sympathy on myself??? When it's me who's ill, all I can think about is how my condition makes other people's lives a misery.. Not really my business but theirs! If they can't deal with it, they can leave..

I actually feel I'm scared it'll be me who cannot leave 'friends' who aren't true friends.. I grew up with abusive parents and am afraid I won't know I even have the right to severe ties with people who're less than supportive.. Abuse is what I knew and got used to, so I'm worried I'll mistake it for love.. It's mad! Just need to have the courage/strength to tell people to p* off if they can't accept me in sickness AND in health..!