I had a good spell lasting 8 years where I developed a passive tolerance of my depression. I even managed med free because I could accept that depression was part of me but not bigger than me. About 3 years ago I was triggered by a change at work, but I didn't realise what the trigger was or why it was so devastating, I only noticed the crippling effects of the illness overtake and overwhelm me. I am now at a crossroads of knowing the trigger and having to choose a new direction. Do I accept my incomplete understanding and learn to live within my new parameters or do I seek to unravel my identity to understand more deeply?