Hey everyone,

I've never posted in this section before. I have bipolar I disorder so I'm usually over there. I need some advice. I got sober and had fourteen months and then relapsed over six months ago. The thing is I've been able to control it for the most part and it hasn't gotten too out of hand but I drank this past weekend and blacked out like I used to and drove home. It's scared me a lot. I guess it just reminds me of how bad it used to be. It was an all day every day thing and I swore I'd never start again but my medication got messed up and it's like I couldn't stop myself. Now it's not really an obsession but just something I'm concerned about. I've drank probably in total six times in the past six months. Maybe I shouldn't be concerned, I don't know.

I used to go to AA and had a sponsor and everything but is there any other way that anyone has tried that's worked? It didn't help me when I really had the urge and I was manic. I just don't know what else to do and I'm scared about falling back into the dark hole. My meds are fixed so that's a relief but I don't know if the alcohol is out of control or not. It seems to be growing.