((Mouse)) Welcome back.
I feel this way from time to time. I think it means we are healing!
Today I was able to muster up some courage (to say some things to my T) and now the cat's out of the bag, so to speak. It means, I know the power and knowing are there inside me, and so does he.
Yes, it can be scarey and takes a while to become comfortable with this new(old) part of ourselves we are integrating.