I understand your frustration. But I do want to point out you have black and white thinking almost across the board on a variety of topics. The reason I bring this up is if a person does not notice the gray area.... then well there is no room to grow and see situations from different angles. So you stay stuck.

It's hard for people of all types to find a connection, let alone dating and then leading to a marriage and kids???.. Sure it sounds hopeless to you, but its not. Yes your restricted by your lack of transportation, That can be changed in many ways. Yeah sure a 45 walk to a bus stop is a huge pain, But hey It's free exercise and you have no idea when you will meet someone , be it just a friend or someone that could be more.

It's hard to break the black and white thinking, hard... not impossible.. Do you have a Therapist you can talk to?