The office manager has told me I cannot see pdoc until my next scheduled appt near the end of Feb. she seems determined to make life difficult, but I think I'm just in the way of her problem--not the problem itself.

Since I'm out of work and basically have to leave home only to go to the grocer or pharmacy, I'm hoping I can keep my little bitty world together sufficiently to stay out of hospital. If "they" get hold of me, I could live many years hooked up to machines, on heavy medication, but still with no solution for the pain. That to me would be the worst nightmare.

I've talked with my lawyer & legal options would be lengthy and costly. My MD is an OD and denies sufficient experience with psychotropic meds to prescribe ... also thinks that would deepen the problems already existing.

You're among my heroines, Trippin'. Your support means so much.