this is just... and absolutely awful situation im in for getting care. its like the care i was getting when i was first diagnosed...very little care.

im literally getting the bare minimum and they dont care. they just dont care about me. they dont care to give me even a little bit more care. this has happened to me time and time again. part of me gets it...its a horrible system and theres almost nothing i can do about it.

but then part of me doesnt get it. like why? they know my history and what im like now and they just...they dont give a crap.

like this is all im ever going to get. literally.