Hi shanghaipete

First welcome to PC. I can relate to your issues. I also suffer from depression and generalized anxiety. There are times when I seem to do better than other times. Anxiety is a very common thing to have when depression gets worse. When my depression is at it's worst, my anxiety increases 10 fold. I get so aware of my depressed thoughts that it makes me more self conscious. Maybe this is what is happening to you. Depression can get worse over years as well as anxiety. You are not alone.