saw T today. he wants me to try to challenge my magical thinking. i talked a lot abt toby and how i think if im not constantly worried about him being sick or dying then that means it will happen. he said thats like OCD. its like a thought ritual. we started breaking down the cognitive distortions in my thoughts and beliefs but i was getting overwhelmed. he said where did u go? i said i dont know. so we played cards and looked up more foods that are low in tyrosine for my new diet (which i am adhering to really well so far ). after that he asked how my anxiety was and it was better. he gave me a high five lol.

then i went to work. it was ok kinda busy but then really slow and i got sent home 30 min early. i made dinner and took a bath and did laundry. now im waiting to go to bed

toby has not pooped since yesterday morning. but he is eating the new probiotic food the vet gave me. i hope he poops soon (weird thing to say) . he seems ok he plays and stuff and purrs but idk.