Yes, I should perhaps find another solicitor.

By the way, I wanted 2015 to be the first year in over a decade, where I never got banned from *ANY* website whatsoever, but I joined UKPunting again recently (don't even ask what it is about). Maybe my mother's ISP never changes the IP address, but I had not been there in ages. They approve new accounts, then I saw a message saying I was banned. It is a den of filth there indeed. Who knows? However, I feel a bit disheartened by it. But oh well, because I am sure I will live.

As for the two women: I cannot stop thinking about them at all and I lost more than just their support. Every single day now, I feel clinically depressed and I know they are never going to be my support workers again, because I have pleaded numerous times and gotten nowhere. So I am gonna be mentally scarred, yet they don't give a damn because I "scared" them and I bet they are all glad at the flat that I am not there.

I don't know what is going on with my money either; I receive ESA and DLA, and I'm sure my DLA is due in the bank about now. What about my shopping? The set up overall just sucks. And OK, I know they suspend it before one is due up in court, but I was there last month and so I am obviously not in the slammer, or this very post would not be here.

I just don't know what to do here. The situation sucks all around. And like I said, I feel depressed. God, I just always feel low and I have lost my will to do anything. Every year, nothing really changes for me. It is a lonely life and one of dire repetition. And even the very people I depended upon crapped all over my trust, so there goes my chances of even building a rep. There is no way I will want to get too close to anyone again, as I would not want a similar disaster to occur. You know?

They hurt me more than they will ever know.