Overwhelming is definitely the word at this point, as much as a cliche as it sounds from a grad student. I will be done with my masters this year, the fall to be exact. The program is challenging, as to be expected, and in addition to that, the program requires a mandatory sort of an unpaid internship. The job requires a lot of responsibilities (which is good I guess, considering that that is the job I will be getting eventually). So, I got grad school and an unpaid job.

And I'm clinically depressed (Prozac 20 mg) and anxious (Xanax .5 mg when needed). I lose motivation easily and it's hard to bring it back up. And of course all of the thoughts of failure, uncertainly, fear are there. It would definitely help sharing my thoughts with other people; but that is it, I don't have people to share. I wish I had someone to share my failures, my successes, my thoughts, but I just simply don't have that someone. I'm generally alone all day: studying, eating, resting. I really don't have friends. It's tough, really, to undergo with such a challenge alone. I'm tired.