Where we live is upstairs. No one can come through the door unless I let them in but that doesn't stop the others coming out when they want. We live in a big room but at the back is a black door. I try to lock it but I can't find the key anywhere. I can't find the key to lock the door. That is where he is you see, behind the door but we can't lock it so he always comes out and hurts everyone but the littles.

In the left front corner of the room is where Kaylee and Lizzie usually hang out. They have soft big cuddly cloud beds and Kaylee likes them very much. She feels safe in the cloud bed and nothing can hurt her when she is in her cloud bed. They have rainbow lights and glowing stars to help keep the bad people away. Both of them are afraid of the dark you see. Night time is when all the bad things happen. Lizzie has Lauren's blue baby blanket too to help her sleep at night. They also both have special rabbits. Kaylee has benji and Lizzie has mimzy but a lot of the time Kaylee offers benji to Lizzie when Lauren is not home but Lizzie has to come out but gets scared. Kaylee does not speak, ever, but she has the kindest, sweetest heart out of everyone.

I am usually located in the other corner towards the front of the room. I do a lot of reading and like reading very much. Lately I do not read though, so much has been happening and I simply do not have the time, I also have to look over everyone and make sure everything is going ok.

Behind me is Cady and she always seems to be seated at a desk. There are lots of papers and books and journals. She is a writer and you can always see that she is working on something. She is scribbling frantically right now, I feel she is distressed and she is looking very worried and concerned. She is working on something but she is scared she won't be able to accomplish what she needs too. I feel bad for Cady. I want to help her but I do not know how. I am not so good when it comes to writing and problem solving, I try to do the best I can but the others are better than me. I just do what I can and hope we are all ok in the end.

Ella is always pacing around the room. She is angry right now. Mad. I can't work out what she is thinking she is blocking me out but I know it won't be good. She keeps bending down and inspecting her arms and legs but I hope this does not mean she will cut again. Lauren tried so hard in that assessment this afternoon and in the phone call this morning. But I don't think Ella thinks it is good enough.

I am turning around now, I do not want to think bad things right now and I am scared the black door will burst open at any moment.

Elisa.